Raman Savithiri - 630. Breaking waves - III 110412

Though I change my residence often,
Though I change my intimate relations,
Devi!
I had been watching the steps,
Of eluding ego's dance decades together.

As a fish is surrounded by water
And as a tree is enclosed in air
Devi!
I am covered by numerous thoughts
Of present place and pressing dealings

Though I have not achieved anything
Though I feel utterly useless at times
Devi!
I see that achieving something
In this delusive world is also worthless

The only interesting business for me
Is to see my own colour, but
Devi!
Can a chameleon see its own colour?
How can it stop reflecting its background?

Though I daily yell out your sacred names
Though I daily practice yoga to hold you
Devi!
Where is progress amidst daily chores?
When the mind will cease to see you?

The thick mind prevents chanting mantra!
The stiff body sits not more than an hour or two!
Devi!
If I struggle like this to pass preliminaries
How am I to face hard tests and temptations?

Am I to die like futile worm?
Am I to come again to this world?
Devi!
Won't you pacify my aching heart?
Show me little grace you ocean of compassion! 110412

Raman Savithiri

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